Awareness is just like chocolate. If you think about how much you’ve had then all you do is feel sick. Some kinds are bitter and some are sweet. Most of all if you have a lot you don’t want to think about it too much, if at all. Its basically inviting a guilt trip upon yourself and no one wants that. Pagans and Heathens purportedly are more aware than others, part and parcel with the package so to speak, but I do occasionally wonder whether this is such a good thing. I’ve regularly heard of people shielding themselves, in various ways and from various things, and its another one of things that I’ve never really learned to do. I really ought to, if its the way to keep myself from having another day like the other day.